So every year, I make a book out of some of my favorite photos of the year. In making this book, I also thought about what happened this year and some of the things that made this year so different from the others. This post is just a quick rundown of things that happened this 2018.
Literally, everything changed. My body changed, my career path changed, my priorities changed, everything! And I was worried about it at first. I thought about how every year ever since I graduated were so drastically different from one another, but most especially this year. But then I thought, maybe all this changing also means progress. So I just chose to see it that way. Hahaha
I used to work for a makeup brand that was the bulk of my monthly income, but then one day, while I was in Europe and on leave, they told me they were terminating my contract by the end of the month (that was two days from that time!) And I was completely terrified because I didn’t know what I was going to do next. When I calmed down though, I thought about how it was a good opportunity, and how I learned a lot, but I knew that it was time anyway.
At the time also, I also made weekly visits to the farm, and I loved being there. And since I had free time, my mom invited me to help with the farm. And so I did.
My mom’s dream was to create a local bean to bar chocolate brand. (Well one of her dreams), and now slowly, it started becoming one of my dreams to. Throughout the year, I learned how to make chocolate, and I’m proud to say, we were able to produce some jsut in time for Christmas! So yes, from fixing lip colors and skin blemishes to grinding beans and making chocolate. GREAT BIG HUGE CHANGE!
I still take freelance projects though to fund some of my other dreams.
This year, I also started to go on a diet, and at first I have to admit my mindset going into it was not really healthy. But, I learned and found a healthy philosophy when thinking about my philosophy about my self-image! To read more about it you can read my essay here.
Along with everything that went on this year, I also started to change my philosophy on taking photos. I used to be so caught up on being accepted by the people I looked up to, that I was so focused on getting a picture, that I punished myself when people don’t notice my work. So then I decided it was time I tried film again. That way I would alot time to detach from the actual outcome of my photo and dedicate more time to experiencing and thinking about the photo I was taking. Sounds like a lot of bullcrap, I know, but it did work. I started taking photos for what I saw, and not because I wanted others to see it. It became a very personal experience for me. And that, I think, is how I wanted it to be.
So I could go on and on and on about how my 2018 went, but I don’t think I would ever finish! It was a great year. I am eternally grateful.
Thank you, next.